My Mother’s upcoming Outpatient surgery

Fidál (Grace), 11 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Tuesday, March 31, 2009 about 1:14 PM Pacific Time

April is looking like a very busy month for my mother and myself. On April 1, we have an appointment about 12:00 with a veterinarian. On April 30, my mother has outpatient surgery scheduled. Mom has a blocked tear duct in her left eye that needs unblocking, so she is having the surgery on the last day of April.

Mom had a cataract in her right eye taken care of the the first week of March. In fact, she has an appointment to see the doctor for a follow-up on that next Monday. Then I work the primary elections polls on Tuesday. All so, April 15 is tax deadline day and I'm not at all sure what I'm going to do.

I've tried doing my taxes myself for the past couple of years, but this year I'm just going to go up the IRS office and talk to them. I know that I'll have to wait in line for a while, but that all right. I've waited in line so much lately that I've started carrying a puzzle book with me as well as my pen and paper journal.

I do Sudoku puzzles, I find them both relaxing and challenging at the same time. I bought a Sudoku puzzle book last week. I won't buy another book until I've filled out all the puzzles in this one. I'm not sure how long it will take me, not vary long if I have to wait for a long time.

I also carry a reading book with me so that I have more then one thing to do if I have to wait a long time. Perhaps that's why my purse is so heavy. If I carried fewer books in it wouldn't weigh very much at all.

I need to make a list of Freecycle items

Kamál (Perfection), 10 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Monday, March 30, 2009 about11:37 AM Pacific Time

I need to make a list of items I'm looking for on Freecycle. I realized this when I checked the e-mails in that folder today. There were a lot of things, some of which I might want but don't need. I just don't have the space to store things that I want, but don't need. Therefore, a list of things I need would make looking at the Freecycle messages easier. Things I need to look for on Freecycle

1. Cereal or soup bowls (I only have three soup or cereal bowels in my cupboard)
2. Spoons (I don't need knives and forks only spoons)
3. Flat sheets (we have many fitted sheets, but very few flat sheets)
4. Chest of drawers with all its drawers (my chest of drawers is missing two drawers)

I think that is my list for now, all though I'll probably find some more stuff I could use once I clean the cabinets and dresser drawers out. If I did find a chest of drawers on Freecycle, I'm not sure how I would get it home. I have a 2000 Kia with four doors and no trailer hitch or trailer, so getting a chest of drawers home would be a bit of a problem.

The Beginning of a New Week in Las Vegas

Jamál (Beauty), 9 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Sunday, March 29, 2009 about 6:07 AM Pacific Time

It's Sunday morning, March 29, in Las Vegas and the beginning of a new week. I have a load of cloths in the dryer and coffee brewing in the pot. I look out my living room window and the sky is still dark, but I can see the velvet black sky slowly change and fade to deep predawn blue.

A new week has begun and soon a new month will begin. It's almost four months into 2009, the year is passing quickly. Perhaps it is passing too quickly, but nothing I can do nothing to slow the passage of time. The only thing I can do is take advantage of the time I have and use it to the best of my ability.

I know that I do waste time either through worry or through procrastination. The time I spend with my mother I hope I'm not wasting, but I suspect part of my time with her may be wasted. My mother is 88 years old and she has acquired a lot of wisdom in those 88 years. I need to find out some of the things she has learned while I have the chance.

I know that while my grandparents will still on this plane of existence I didn't ask them questions and glean the wisdom of their lives. There are things I would have like to have known and now it's too late to ask them questions. However, it isn't too late to ask my mother questions and then record her answers. To find out what Mom thinks about the changes that the world has gone through in the past 88 years.

March 2009 Going out Like a Lion

Istiqlál (Independence), 7 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Friday, March 27, 2009 about 8:02 AM Pacific Time

March 2009 is going out like a Lion. Yesterday, in Las Vegas, we had wind gusting up to 50 MPH. The wind has died down today, as I look out my living room window I watch the limbs of the stone pine tree moving sluggishly, so there only a light breeze blow this morning.

The weather report call for lighter winds for the next few days, but then the wind picks up again. I'm not sure about April showers yet, because I don't remember the weather man on Channel 3 in Las Vegas mentioning anything except wind. Of course, after yesterday's winds anything else would be an anti-climax. Three window washers were rescued by the Las Vegas fire department on Thursday, March 26, because of the wind. The window washers received some injuries, but otherwise all right.

A Windy Day in Las Vegas

Istijlál (Majesty), 6 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Thursday, March 26, 2009 about 2:49 PM Pacific Time

The wind in the stone pine trees

is more then just a light spring breeze

The wind is blowing at a study rate. The limbs of the stone pine trees in my front yard are waving. I looked into the backyard earlier today and there was a black plastic trash bag laying under the oleanders. I'll have to pick it up, but I'm going to wait until after the wind stops.



At the rate the wind is blowing now, there will be more trash back there before morning. So there isn't any use picking anything up until the wind stops blowing. I hope the wind stop blowing by Saturday, when I take out the trash and the recyclables.

The dentist office postponed my dental appointment

Fidál (Grace), 4 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Monday-Tuesday, March 24, 2009 about 11:10 AM Pacific Time

The receptionist called this morning when I was in the bathtub and said the dentist called in. I'm not sure exactly when my teeth are going to be pulled, but it wasn't today. The appointment scheduler will call and give me a time for the new appointment.

I'm still looking forward to getting my lower teeth pulled and the rest of my dentures put in. Once I have that done then we're going out for prime rib. I'm looking forward to eating my favorite meal with a new set of dentures.

I'm not sure precisely where we will go for prime rib just yet. Las Vegas has several restaurants I can choose from and it's going to be a difficult choice. I guess I need to call the restaurants and see how much the prime rib dinners cost. It's been over a year since I went out for prime rib so I don't know the exact price.

Since I have a lot of writing, housework and other stuff to catch up, it's probably just as well the dental appointment was postponed. When my teeth are pulled, I'll return home, take some pain pills and go to sleep, which will cause me to be even further behind on the projects I'm working on right now.

Tomorrow I have the rest of my teeth pulled

Kamál (Perfection), 3 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Monday, March 23, 2009 about 4:42 PM Pacific Time

Tomorrow, March 24, I have the rest of my teeth pulled and my bottom dentures put in. My appointment is at 8:30 AM in the morning, after my teeth are extracted I will come home, take a pain pill and go to bed for two or three hours.

My diet for the next few days will consist of apple sauce, coffee, hot tea, and water. I have two bottles of the flavored water in the fridge cooling. When I get home from the dentist I will open one and drink for the rest of the day.

I can't wait to have the rest of my teeth pulled and the rest of my new dentures put in. I'm going to chew better then I do now. I'll still be cutting my fruit up to eat it for a while, but that isn't a problem because I've been doing that for years.

At least, I've been cutting my apples up. I can't remember the last time I took a bit out of a whole apple. I also remember my grandmother cutting her apples up when she ate them. Grandma never took a bit out of an intact apple. She not only cut the apple up, she peeled it as well. I don't think I'll go to the trouble of peeling them, not for a while anyway, but I'm going to cut them up before I eat them.

Today I begin a fourteen-day treatment for Psoriasis

Jamál (Beauty), 2 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Sunday, March 22, 2009 about 6:22 PM Pacific Time

Today I begin a fourteen-day treatment Psoriasis. I apply the cream twice a day, in the morning and in the evening. It does help to an extent, but lately it seems the Psoriasis is getting more irritating. It could be stress, when I talked to the doctor; she said stress could be a factor in the out breaks.

I suspect I've had the problem all my life, it's just that when I was younger the outbreaks were short and passed quickly. However, since 2007 when my mother went into the hospital for the bawl resection the out breaks have been worse. Of course, that's when my stress increased.

My ulcer also begin acting up really bad in 2007 and I've been under stress ever since. I'm going to have to start taking a different approach to life. True the stress this year has been less then in the past couple of years, but I still have stress and it's still affecting me.

Anyway, for the next fourteen days I will apply the cream morning and evening. I'm glad spring is here because I seem to have less of a problem with Psoriasis in the spring and summer then I do in the fall and winter, but that may be because there is more sunlight and that apparently alleviates the problem a little.

It's a New Day

Jalál (Glory), 1 Bahá (Splendor), 166 BE – Saturday, March 21, 2009 about 7:35 AM Pacific Time

It's a new day and for thousands of people across the planet a New Year. Today many people are celebrating Naw-Ruz, which means New Day. Naw-Ruz is the beginning of the New Year 166 BE. This afternoon, I'm going to a Naw-Ruz celebration at the Baha'i Center in Las Vegas.

Naw-Ruz is a time of celebration and joy, the month of ‘Alá (Loftiness), the time of fasting has ended, and the month of Bahá (Splendor) has begun. Spring has also begun in the Northern Hemisphere. This year the sun crossed the vernal equinox on March 20 at about 4:44 AM Pacific Time.

Today, March 21, is the first full day of spring. When I went out to get the paper this morning street I live on was cover with yellow blooms that feel from some of the neighbors trees. I heard birds singing, proclaiming their joy because of a new day and a New Year. In addition, the neighbor's flowers are blooming revealing bright spring colors. It's a beautiful start to a New Year.

Happy Naw-Ruz

Today my mother is 88 years old

Istijlál (Majesty), 18 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Thursday, March 19, 2009 about 3:17 PM Pacific Time

Today my mother is 88 years old. Mom was born in 1921 on a farm in Oklahoma. Mom was an only child, but she did have cousins to play with with she was growing up. Mom worked all her life most of the time as a waitress. I worry about Mom and Mom gets upset when she realizes I worry about her.

Recently Mom had a cataract removed from her right eye. She can't bend over below the waist until after her next eye doctor's appointment, which is in April. Mom is going to have another out patient procedure the end of this month. She is going to have a blocked tear duct opened.

Since 2007, Mom has been in and out of the hospital, as well as various out patient procedures. Mom's biggest concern now is that she can't bend over below the waist and it prevents her from doing some of the housework. Mom doesn't like not being able to sweep and mop, but the jobs will get done; perhaps not as fast as if we were both working at them, but they'll get done.

Today Mom and I went out to eat for her birthday. Mom likes eating out, going to movies and to poetry readings. We will start going back to the poetry readings in April. Next Tuesday I have my bottom teeth pulled and the rest of my dentures put in, so that will keep us home most of the day. Mom doesn't drive anymore so when we go anywhere, I'm the one doing the driving.

Midweek Reflections March 18, 2009

‘Idál (Justice), 17 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Wednesday, March 18, 2009 about 12:23 PM Pacific Time

This Wednesday, hump day and I am standing at the crest of the week. When I looked at my mother yesterday, I realized that she looks like my grandmother. I haven't noticed the resemblance before and I'm not sure why I noticed it now. Perhaps it has something to do with my mother's birthday tomorrow, I don't know.

This morning, when I looked in the mirror I realized that I'm looking more like my mother every day. I suppose this means that I will eventually look like my grandmother. That is an interesting thought, not a frightening as I used to think it would be. Perhaps that has something to do with the wisdom I have acquired over the past 62 years.

I realized about ten years ago that I was beginning to look like my mother. It was a frightening thought then, but it's not anymore. I look like my mother. My mother looks like my grandmother. I suspect my grandmother probably looked like her mother; like my great grandmother.

I know that the resemblance has more to do with genetics then anything else. Now I'm wondering if my daughter, whom I gave up for adoption when she was born, will look like me. I will probably never know that until I pass into the next world and that will be a long time because I want to live to at least 100 years old.

As the days get longer

Kamál (Perfection), 15 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Monday, March 16, 2009 about 6:40 PM Pacific Time

It's almost sunset in Las Vegas, the days are getting longer and warmer. Longer days means I can get more accomplished during the daylight hours, but I can never seem to get as much accomplished as I would like.

I did get something accomplished today, but not everything I wanted to accomplish. Part of the problem is an ulcer which acts up when I am under stress. It acted up this afternoon and I had to stop, set down and unstress. When I unstress I can feel the difference.

When my ulcer acts up I can't set at the computer and write. I have to go to the couch, set down and say prayers. This afternoon I took a nap as well. The dentist suggested I don't in my dentures, but I had my dentures in while I dozed sitting on the couch. I'm not sure that dozing while I'm sitting on the couch actually counts as sleep. I'll ask the dentist next time I see him.

I'm going to have the rest of my teeth pull on March 24 and the lower plate put in. I suppose part of my problem with the ulcer could be that I'm not chewing my food properly. I don't see what that would have to do with causing the ulcer to act up, but that is something I'm going to have to as my doctor the next time I see her.

I think I just need to stop worrying and relax a little. I'm still worrying over things that turn out not to be a problem. Perhaps the best solution to the worrying is to stop what I'm doing when a worry raises its head and say a prayer.

My Mother’s Birthday is March 19

My mother was born on March 19, 1921 on a farm in Oklahoma. My mother so small, that the doctor said she would never survive. My mother survived and grew into a strong woman. My mother turns 88 years old this year and has stated that she want to live to be 100.

The first week in March, Mom had a cataract removed from her right eye. The doctor told her not to bend over below the waist. These instructions upset Mom, but she is following them. My mother likes to do every thing herself, so the "not bending over below the waist" is not to her liking.

Mom wantx dangly earrings for pierced ears and to go out for prime rib of beef. I'm not sure yet which I will get her.

The Day of Beauty

Jamál (Beauty), 14 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Sunday, March 15, 2009 about 11:46 AM Pacific Time

Sunday beauty's day
revealing the Lord's glory
to humanity.

I remember my grandmother reading to me on Sunday. I remember grandma reading the bible, storybooks and poems to me. I don't think she every read a haiku, I'm not sure grandma ever knew the different forms poets use to write poems.

When I was a child, my grandmother didn't talk to me about many things. Some of the subjects were those she wouldn't talk about with a child. Some of subjects weren't discussed because I never thought to bring up the question and poetry forms was one of these.

Actually, I didn't realize there were so many different poetry forms until I started editing my poems. Once I begin the process of rewriting and perfecting the poem, I discovered a variety of forms. I use as many of the forms I can to write poems, but one of the forms I like best is the haiku. I suspect my grandmother would have liked it as well.

March 13 is Ear Muff Day

Istiqlál (Independence), 12 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Friday, March 13, 2009 about 7:09 AM Pacific Time

I have to admit that earmuffs bring back pleasant memories of my childhood. My grandmother wouldn't let my siblings and me go out doors in winter without putting a pair of earmuffs on us. I liked and still like the way earmuffs feel on my ears.

March 13 is Ear Muff Day. On March 13, 1877, Chester Greenwood, the father of the Earmuff, patented his "Champion Ear Protector", which becames known as the "ear mufflers" and later "earmuffs".

I am tired of cold weather

‘Idál (Justice), 10 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Wednesday, March 11, 2009 about 9:15 AM Pacific Time

I am tired of cold weather. Spring is a little over a week away and I want warm weather. I want to take the trashcans to the curb on Wednesday mornings without having to put a ski jacket on to keep me warm. It is light enough now; I can take the trashcans to the curb on the day they pick up the trash instead of the night before.

I took the trash out this morning between 6:30 and 7:00 AM it was cold. It is cold enough here in Las Vegas that I have not turned the heat off yet. Normally I turn the heat of about March 1 and leave the central air off until sometime in April. I tried turning the heat off and it was too cold to leave it that way.

Since the power bill has not crested $300.00 this winter, I have no room to gripe. Still it is colder then last March. If I turn, the central air unit up any more then the power bill will be out of my budget. Yes, I have a budget; I have changed the budget spreadsheet to a monthly focus because it is easier to work on.

I'm attempting a household budget

Fidál (Grace), 9 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Tuesday, March 10, 2009 about 6:40 PM Pacific Time

I'm attempting a household budget. Today I downloaded some free budget spreadsheets to use in EXCEL. I downloaded a 12-month spreadsheet and a single monthly spreadsheet. Right now, I'm using the month-at-a-time spreadsheet. I think I like that better then looking at the entire year at a time.

Dealing with a single month is less stressful then dealing with an entire year. Right now I don't need any more stress then I'm already dealing with. My ulcer is acting up again; it seems to act up more when I'm under stress then it does with any food.

Another advantage of using a monthly spreadsheet is focus. It helps if I focus on a single month. Of course, I'm going to have to go back and deal with January and February. I have all the information for those two months because at the beginning of 2009 I started to set up a yearly budget spreadsheet, but it wasn't as nice as the templates I downloaded today. So I'm going to transfer everything I have to the monthly spreadsheet template and use it.

A Daylight Savings Time Tradition

Jamál (Beauty), 7 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Sunday, March 8, 2009 about 3:30 PM Pacific Time

Some people have New Year's traditions, some have Christmas traditions, some have Thanksgiving traditions, but I have a Daylight Savings Time tradition. I never set my clock ahead in the spring before going to bed on Saturday night. I never get up at 2:00 AM to set my clock ahead; instead I wait until I get up on Sunday to set my clock ahead.

Springing the clock forward isn't difficult. I have only one clock I have to reset. The computer automatically adjusts itself (I want a self-adjusting clock). I still have to set my clock ahead today, but I have a good excuse for waiting so late in the day to do it.

I'm moving my clock from the living room into my bedroom and I don't want to reset the clock twice. I can't hear the alarm clock if it's in the living room, so I have to move it to the bedroom so that I can hear the radio alarm go off. Right now, the radio is set to a talk station. However, I think I will eventually change that. I'm not sure just yet what station I want the alarm set to.

I'm considering changing the alarm to a music station, but I don't know which music station. Talk stations don't do much to wake me up, unless it's set to a station with an early morning shock jock. The voice of the talk show host or the message has to be irritating enough to wake me up and get me moving otherwise I just turn the radio off and go back to sleep.

Music that has a good beat like rock or jazz wakes me up and gets me moving. Neither easy listening nor religious music does much to wake me up. The music I listen to has to get me out of bed and get me moving. I'm going to have to try several stations before I find one that does the job.

My teeth are soaking in a cup

I remember my grandmother taking her teeth out and putting them in a glass. I never thought that I would be taking my teeth out and putting them in a cup. All right, it isn't actually a cup they are soaking in, it's a plastic container with a lid.

My gums are shrinking and I have to put denture adhesive on my plate to hold it in my mouth. The problem was that Friday, when I was driving around Las Vegas and doing business. the pink adhesive goo I use didn't hold them properly and they kept coming loose, which is embarrassing. Let's face a person's teeth should not come loose when one talks.

There are other problems with using a denture adhesive from a tub to hold your teeth in, but the teeth slipping is the worst. At least, it is this week; next week I might find something worse about it, but I'll deal with that then. Right now, the idea of my teeth coming out when I'm talking to someone is not a laughing matter.

This is the first time my teeth have came loose when I was talking, still the fact that it happened bothers me. It makes me wish I had taken better care of my teeth and my gums when I was younger and still had the chance to save them.

The only time I've slept with my teeth in was the first day I had them. My dentist advises me not to and I haven't yet. Setting up on a couch dozing doesn't count. Anyway, I'm going to have to do something about them coming loose when I'm talking. I can't do business if my dentures are falling out of my mouth.

My Mother’s Birthday is March 19

Istiqlál (Independence), 5 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Friday, March 6, 2009 about 6:29 Pacific Time

On March 19, 2009 my mother will be 88 years young. She has ask for several things for her birthday, but I'm not sure which I will get her. I got her a large bottle of hand and body lotion for Ayyam-i-Ha. I'm going to give her something else for her birthday.

The stuff Mom has asked for are

1. Dangly eartings for pierced ears
2. A prime rib dinner
3. A Marie Calender's pie with ice cream
4. A hearing aide
5. New glasses
6. A photo album to hold photo of her grandchildren and great grandchildren
7. To visit her grandchildren and great grandchildren in Colorado
8. The dinning room table back in the dinning room
9. The tile in her bathroom shower fixed

Some of the dinning room items will be achieved in April or May. The rest I'm not sure about except that I think we'll go to Marie Calender's for her birthday lunch or dinner. I have several coupons so going out to eat is within our budget.

I'm going to have to find out what type of pie Mom wants for her birthday. If she had asked for a cake then wouldn't have to ask because chocolate cake and strawberry ice cream are her favorite sweets. However, pie is a different story because she likes so many different types of pie and I don't think she has a favorite.

Spring Cleaning Time Again

Istijlál (Majesty), 4 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Thursday, March 5, 2009 about 1:08 PM Pacific Time

It's spring cleaning time again and I'm going to be up all night cleaning house. I've accepted the fact that this is the only way to do it. Mom wants to see me work at the computer while she cleans house. My mother is 87 so she should have want she wants, it's just that at 87 she isn't as fast as when she was 78. Therefore, I'm going to do the stuff at night, which she can't get to during the day.

The first day of spring is either March 20 or 21, I'm not exactly sure when the sun crosses the vernal equinox this year. Anyway, the first day of spring is about two weeks away and I would like to have most of the spring-cleaning accomplished by March 21. Therefore, tonight I'm going to start with the living room, actually half of the living room. Our living room is big enough to pass a two room.

When Mom goes to bed, I'm going to start with the section where the couch and the love seat are and then move from there. I'm hoping to get a good part of it done tonight. I'm attempting to keep a positive attitude in all this. I suppose I could hire a maid, but Mom is against it and I can't afford a maid during the day, much less what a service would charge at night.

My grandmother did housework at night. When Grandma couldn't sleep she would get up and do housework. Doing housework at night is in my genetic code. The only reason Mom doesn't do house work at night is that she can't see very well and the light bulbs we use are the long lasting one, they don't give off a lot of light.

I'm planning on posting every day to each of my blogs. I'm not sure how that will work because I usually over extend myself when I set goals like this, but I'm going to make an attempt anyway. After all, how can I know my limits unless I attempt to go beyond them?

It’s been a productive morning

This is what happens when I get up about 2:00 AM. Of course, I did go to bed early last night and for once in a long time, I went right to sleep. I was tired, but I'm not sure that's the reason I went to sleep immediately. I think the reason I went to sleep when I did, was lack of worry. For once I wasn't worried about anything.

This morning I emptied the cat litter boxes and put in fresh litter. I made coffee and wrote three blog entries. I then went outside, picked up the morning paper and carried a bag of trash to the curb. The trashcans were taken out yesterday, so all I had to do this morning was take out one bag.

Mom has a doctor's appointment this afternoon at 1:00 PM, she is going to have cataract surgery. I will bring her home and fix something to eat. Mom couldn't eat this morning because of the surgery this afternoon. I think I'll fix some hot dogs, eggs and potatoes. Mom likes those foods, actually Mom likes anything. She's not happy about not being able to eat this morning, but if she eats then the surgery must be rescheduled and she wouldn't like that.

My First Social Security check arrived in my bank account

Idál (Justice), 3 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Wednesday, March 4, 2009 about 6:21 AM Pacific Time.

I finally got my first Social Security check; it arrived in my bank account sometime last night or early this morning. Anyway, the money was there when I checked the account first thing this morning. Online banking is wonderful.

I remember my Grandparents getting their Social Security checks. The check would arrive by mail and then they would go to the bank with it. Once they arrived at the bank, they would either deposit or cash it. In this age of high gas prices and other issues, all I have to do is check my account to see if the money is there.

Another advantage of online banking is knowledge. Since I don't have to go to the bank or call the bank to check my account, I know immediately if the account is overdrawn. I can also pay the power bill, the car insurance, or any other bill I want without leaving the comfort of my home. Considering the way people drive with cell phones and other distractions, online banking keeps a person safe.

After a long day, I need to write

The process of transformation isn't easy. Every day I learn something that carries the process forward. One thing I learned today, is that I can't go without breakfast. I have an ulcer and if I don't eat breakfast my ulcer acts up, which isn't a pleasant experience.



Fortunately, I don't have to worry about breakfast for a while. The reason for this is that I have a cupboard full of cereal. I also have canned and powdered milk. That's good because I have to eat breakfast or my ulcer acts up.



I like cereal, I would rather have yogurt to eat with it. I don't have any yogurt so I will have milk on the cereal. If I get tired of cereal and milk then I will eat applesauce and cereal. Actually, that last combination sounds good so perhaps I'll try that in the morning.



I have found that prayer also helps alleviate the ulcer. I'm a worrier so I'm not surprised that I have an ulcer. I'm just going to have to learn to let go. I have to learn to let go and write, because I have found that writing and worrying at the same time is difficult.



There are certain things that I can't do at the same time. I can't write and worry any more then I can pray and worry. Those two activities, praying and writing, alleviate worry. Once the worry is gone then the ulcer doesn't act up as much. I'm still going to have to eat breakfast, but a person should eat breakfast anyway.