As the days get longer

Kamál (Perfection), 15 ‘Alá (Loftiness), 165 BE – Monday, March 16, 2009 about 6:40 PM Pacific Time

It's almost sunset in Las Vegas, the days are getting longer and warmer. Longer days means I can get more accomplished during the daylight hours, but I can never seem to get as much accomplished as I would like.

I did get something accomplished today, but not everything I wanted to accomplish. Part of the problem is an ulcer which acts up when I am under stress. It acted up this afternoon and I had to stop, set down and unstress. When I unstress I can feel the difference.

When my ulcer acts up I can't set at the computer and write. I have to go to the couch, set down and say prayers. This afternoon I took a nap as well. The dentist suggested I don't in my dentures, but I had my dentures in while I dozed sitting on the couch. I'm not sure that dozing while I'm sitting on the couch actually counts as sleep. I'll ask the dentist next time I see him.

I'm going to have the rest of my teeth pull on March 24 and the lower plate put in. I suppose part of my problem with the ulcer could be that I'm not chewing my food properly. I don't see what that would have to do with causing the ulcer to act up, but that is something I'm going to have to as my doctor the next time I see her.

I think I just need to stop worrying and relax a little. I'm still worrying over things that turn out not to be a problem. Perhaps the best solution to the worrying is to stop what I'm doing when a worry raises its head and say a prayer.

After a long day, I need to write

The process of transformation isn't easy. Every day I learn something that carries the process forward. One thing I learned today, is that I can't go without breakfast. I have an ulcer and if I don't eat breakfast my ulcer acts up, which isn't a pleasant experience.



Fortunately, I don't have to worry about breakfast for a while. The reason for this is that I have a cupboard full of cereal. I also have canned and powdered milk. That's good because I have to eat breakfast or my ulcer acts up.



I like cereal, I would rather have yogurt to eat with it. I don't have any yogurt so I will have milk on the cereal. If I get tired of cereal and milk then I will eat applesauce and cereal. Actually, that last combination sounds good so perhaps I'll try that in the morning.



I have found that prayer also helps alleviate the ulcer. I'm a worrier so I'm not surprised that I have an ulcer. I'm just going to have to learn to let go. I have to learn to let go and write, because I have found that writing and worrying at the same time is difficult.



There are certain things that I can't do at the same time. I can't write and worry any more then I can pray and worry. Those two activities, praying and writing, alleviate worry. Once the worry is gone then the ulcer doesn't act up as much. I'm still going to have to eat breakfast, but a person should eat breakfast anyway.