Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Housekeeping in Las Vegas

‘Idál (Justice), 7 Rahmat (Mercy), 167 BE – Wednesday, June 30, 2010 about 12:40 AM Pacific Time

So far it’s a good day, Mom helped sift the cat litter and she washed some of the dishes. I still have to sweep and mop the floors, which I will do sometime today. I am learning to accept good enough because I just don’t have the energy to large amounts of housecleaning in a single setting.

I have to do housework for a while and then I have to rest. I know part of the problem is my thyroid, but I’m not sure that is the entire issue. I’ll see my doctor sometime in July after my blood test results come back. I’m having the blood test on Friday and I will make an appointment with the doctor then. In the mean time, I’m keeping track of my symptoms perhaps she can suggest a solution.

In July I also have to make an appointment for Mom with her doctor. Mom just doesn’t seem to have the desire to do anything except sit on the couch or love seat. She talks about doing housework, but she doesn’t get around to doing it. Today, I ran dishwater in the sink and then ask her to wash the dishes. Part of Mom’s difficulties results from Alzheimer’s disease, but I don’t think that is the entire issue. Perhaps the best way to handle the situation is just to ask Mom to help me and see how she responds.

Monday, June 28, 2010

After Sunset

Fidál (Grace), 6 Rahmat (Mercy), 167 BE – Monday, June 28, 2010 about 10:10 PM Pacific Time

It is after sunset and for me a new day has begun. Today I decided to begin making all of my blog entries after sunset. This has nothing to do with it being a new day. The reason for my decision is my mother. Mom has Alzheimer's disease. Mom has short-term memory problems. Mom misplaces items and gets angry when she cannot find them. Therefore, I stop what I am doing to help her find the items.

Today, Monday, June 28, 2010, I realized that I would rather have housework interrupted then writing or working online. Mom gets less angry in the afternoon and evening; in addition, she can find things easier at this time of day. I am changing the time I write and work online to late afternoon and evening.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Denture adhesives and my lower dentures

Jamál (Beauty), 4 Rahmat (Mercy), 167 BE – Sunday, June 27, 2010 about 8:09 AM Pacific Time

I do not have problems with denture adhesives holding my upper dentures in place. It is the lower dentures that are the problem. I have decided to go back to a denture adhesive cream for a few weeks. I am not sure that the new zinc free formulas will my lower dentures in place any better then anything else, but I am willing to try it.

I am tired of attempting to eat a meal without my lower dentures. The only place I can do this is at home because it is difficult to take my dentures out of my mouth in public. Removing the lower dentures in a restaurant without other customers noticing is impossible. Therefore, I can only order soup; I can eat soup at home when I go to a restaurant I want to order something I cannot make at home.

Friday, June 25, 2010

: Motivating My Mother in Las Vegas

Istiqlál (Independence), 2 Rahmat (Mercy), 167 BE – Friday, June 25, 2010 about 7:09 AM Pacific Time

I am not sure it is possible to motivate someone else, but I am going to have to attempt motivating my Mother. Mom has Alzheimer's disease and short-term memory issues. She forgets to do the chores that she believes is her responsibility or she just never gets around to them.

Mom has decided that cleaning the cat litter, washing the dishes, and sweeping and mopping the floors are her jobs. She forgets to do them and gets angry if I remind her to do wash the dishes, etc. The dishes and floors, she forgets to do or does not get around to those chores. When it comes to the cat litter, she thinks she did the job, when did not clean the litter.

I accidently found one way to motivate or encourage Mom to do "her chores". I decided to sweep and mop her bathroom floor on Tuesday. I filled the mop bucket with hot bleach water (I am going to use a different type of cleaning liquid in the mop water next time) and then I began to sweep the floor. Mom asked me why I was sweeping her bathroom floor; I said it needed sweeping and mopping.

After I finished sweeping the floor, I emptied the trash by taking it to the garage. When I returned Mom was mopping the floor. She was a bit "pissed off" at me because I was doing "her job". The same thing happed when I was washing the dishes Wednesday afternoon. I run hot soapy water into the dishpan and then went to do a room check for dirty dishes.  When I returned to the kitchen, Mom was washing the dishes. This method seems to motivate Mom, but I am going to have to find another way to motivate her, as well.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Places I do not answer my cell phone

Istijlál (Majesty), 1 Rahmat (Mercy), 167 BE – Thursday, June 24, 2010 about 9:45 AM Pacific Time

I have a cell phone. I have not set up the voice mail. I am think I will do that this weekend. I have decided that there are three places I will not answer my cell. The reasons are safety, courtesy, and privacy.

I will not answer my cell in the car because talking to someone on a cell phone is distracting and unsafe. I will not answer my cell phone in a meeting because it is impolite; in fact, I turn my cell onto vibrate when I am in any type of meeting. I will not answer my cell phone in the bathroom and to prevent this I usually leave the phone in my purse or in another room.

I have not decided what to say on my voice mail message. I may just use a generic message with name, phone number, and request for a call back number. I may not even request a call back number because I can see that on my missed calls. Anyone who wants to block their number, does not really want to talk to me anyway.

I might say, “I am in one of the tree place I do not answer my cell phone, so please call back or leave a message.” Alternatively, I could just find a scripture verse and put that on the message.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Osteoarthritis of the Knee

‘Idál (Justice), 19 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Wednesday, June 23, 2010 about 9:23 AM Pacific Time

I have osteoarthritis in my right knee. The pain, to some degree, is always present. It is difficult to do housework, to stand for a long time, to sit for a long time, to walk, etc. I still do those things; it is just that I have difficulty doing them because of the osteoarthritis.

I have found, that when I sweep or mop, I have to sit down for a few minutes afterwards until the pain becomes less. It never really goes away, but it does retreat to background noise for a little while. Once the pain retreats, I go back to sweeping, to mopping, or to whatever I was doing.
As you can imagine, I do not get a lot of sleep at night. The reason for this is pain. When I move my knee, it hurts and the pain wakes me up. Under these conditions, I do not accomplish very much. Eventually, I will get everything done; it is just going to take me a while to do it.

I have an appointment on June 30 concerning treating the osteoarthritis. I have to do something, I am tired of the pain and I am tired of its effect on my life. I want to enjoy life again.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Summer has arrived in Las Vegas

Fidál (Grace), 18 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Tuesday, June 22, 2010 about 11:05 AM Pacific Time

Summer arrived yesterday, so the days are getting shorter instead of longer. The length of the daylight hours does not matter that much because there is never enough time to accomplish everything I have or want to do. I have to pick the projects I complete in a day, at least that way I can get a few things completed.

Yesterday, I completed an essay, submitted the essay to a contest, and went through part of an evaluation for a medical study. Today, I have to pick up a prescription from Walgreens, post to each of my blogs, and figure out why my kitchen counter is so crowded. I also have to set up another spreadsheet in my budget book because we (Mom and I) can get a grant for someone to come in and stay with Mom.

Tomorrow, someone is coming to give me an estimate on remodeling Mom's bathroom and putting in a walk-in or handicap accessible shower. I do not know where the money is going to come from, but I am not going to worry about that until I know how much it is going to cast. I have already had one estimate and I know I cannot afford that estimate, but hope springs eternal even in summer.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Tomorrow is Laundry Day

Jalál (Glory), 15 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Saturday, June 19, 2010 about 5:42 PM Pacific Time

Tomorrow is laundry day, but I am only going to wash two or three baskets of cloths instead of four or five. Four laundry baskets will fit in the backseat of my Kia; however, I have to make four trips to get the basket into the laundromat.

The way my right knee has felt lately, I don't think making more then three trips into the laundromat, carrying a basket of cloths each time, is a good idea. Perhaps this is a triumph for the process of transformation; I am learning to work with my physical weaknesses instead of against them. Two baskets will hold the cloths that Mom and I need for the next couple of days. I can make another trip to the laundromat on Tuesday or Wednesday.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Today the Pain is a one

Istiqlál (Independence), 14 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Friday, June 18, 2010 about 5:22 PM Pacific Time

The pain is a one
Haunting the depths of my mind
It waits unguarded

The pain in my knee is flicker, like a flame burning low and then high, from one to nine. The pain never goes away it is always there waiting for me to go to sleep. When I do go to sleep and stretch my leg out the pain wakes me up.

I go to sleep in the fetal possession, when I stretch my leg out it hurts so bad that I wake up. It doesn't matter what I take, the pain is still there interfering with my life and my joy.

Rising to a nine
It pulls me out of deep sleep
My joints protesting

The constant pain is wearing on my soul and mind. I don't sleep well at night. I try to take a nap during the day, but that is no better because the pain in my knee is always there. It is always waiting for me to let down my guard.

I know that pain is part of the process of living, but normal pain is eventually relieved. Chronic pain is different because it never leaves it just retreats for a little while waiting to reappear.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

About this blog

‘Idál (Justice), 12 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Wednesday, June 16, 2010 about 6:24 AM Pacific Time

When I began this blog, the subject was transformation. I have gotten away from that subject and blogged about numerous other things that have little to do with transformation. Therefore, I have a choice to make. I can change the subject and the name of the blog or I can get back to blogging about the various aspects of spiritual transformation.

I am not going the blog title. That being the case, I have to get back to the subject of transformation. I would like to make a blog entry everyday, but this may not be possible. Life and living have a tendency to insert themselves into a person’s best-laid plans. I am definitely going to blog every other day, but reserve the option to blog everyday if something interesting happens in the process of transformation.

Since I live in Las Vegas and I am my mother’s caregiver, intriguing things happen in my life often. The events in my life give me good themes about the process of transformation. However, sometimes it is difficult to write about those events on the day they happen. I will blog about these events as soon as I can.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

A Beautiful day in Las Vegas

Fidál (Grace), 11 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Tuesday, June 15, 2010 about 4:13 PM Pacific Time

The sunshine reflects
Off the desert landscaping
Beautiful cactus

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Another cup of Coffee

Jamál (Beauty), 9 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Sunday, June 13, 2010 about 2:37 PM Pacific Time

I have no idea how many cups of coffee I have drank today. I am not going to attempt to guess at the amount. I am going to have another cup of coffee and then I am going to pick up a prescription. I called it in yesterday, so I know it is ready.

I need to pick the prescription up today because I need to take the tablet in the morning. I take the pill on an empty stomach about an hour before I eat. I take the pill, then I turn the computer on and check the time. After that I do the morning stuff, which usually takes about an hour.

Before I leave the house I will unplug the coffee pot and will not plug it in again until I make another pot of coffee in the morning. I make one pot of fresh coffee each day and then warm any leftover coffee I may have.  I usually do not have leftover coffee, unless I decide to make a second percolator.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

My new cell phone has games

Jalál (Glory), 8 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Saturday, June 12, 2010 about 12:52 PM Pacific Time

My new cell phone has three games (1) The Need for Speed: Carbon, (2) The Sims DJ, and (3) Jamdat Sudoku. The only game I play is Jamdat Sudoku because it is the only one I am interested in playing. Sudoku is the only game on my phone that I enjoy.

When playing Sudoku on the cell phone, I can enable regular grids or newspaper grid. I usually play on regular grids. The levels of difficulty are basic, easy, medium, and hard. Lately I have played the basic games, but that will change. Next week I will go to the easy or perhaps medium level of difficulty.

I can download more games if I want, but I am no planning on it right now. I only enjoy two or three games and Sudoku is the one I prefer to play while I am waiting in line.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Morning clouds and wind in Las Vegas

White clouds decorate
The blue sky reflect the sun
Las Vegas cools down

The wind is blowing this morning, clouds are moving across the blue sky, and the morning is cool. There are clouds hiding the sun, I know this because the light reflecting from my garage is not as brilliant today.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Iced Café Mocha

Istiqlál (Independence), 7 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Thursday, June 10, 2010 about 8:44 PM

Whipped cream decorate
Chocolate caffeine's essence
Cold coffee hot day

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

I am changing my voice mail message

‘Idál (Justice), 5 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Wednesday, June 9, 2010 about 3:05 PM Pacific Time

I am changing my voice mail because I am changing my phone answering policy. Normally, when I am at home I answer the phone if it rings and I can reach it before the fourth ring. However, this policy causes me to waste time because I have a problem saying "No!"

Ninety percent of the time, I work from home and online. When I had a phone line connection to the Internet, there was no problem because people could not get through. However, since I got DSL interruption of my work hours is becoming an issue. In addition, is my inability to say "No!" The combination causes me to waste work time, so I am going to start answering the phone between certain hours.

I now have a cell phone, so any friend, relative, or business associate can get me on the cell phone. If the cell phone rings, I can answer it depending on where I am at the time. I do not answer my cell phone when I am driving, attending meetings, or in the bathroom. I put my cell phone on vibrate and put it in my purse, so I am not tempted to answer when it rings or vibrates as the case may be.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Another Hot day in Las Vegas

Kamál (Perfection), 3 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Monday, June 7, 2010 about 5:33 PM Pacific Time

It's another hot day in Las Vegas, which means most of the local people are staying in and drinking a lot of water. I don't know what the tourist are doing because I would have to go to the Las Vegas Strip to find out and it's too hot to drive that far.

I went out once this morning, so I'm not going out again today. When the temperatures are this hot, I try to avoid leaving the house. I had to go after another case of water, some soda and to have some keys made. I'm not going out again today, if I can avoid it. I don't need to get anything else today and we have enough bottled water to last several day.

Sunday, June 06, 2010

Coffee and Comics

Jamál (Beauty), 2 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Sunday, June 6, 2010 about 8:14 AM Pacific Time

Sunday comics are special because they bring back memories of my father. I remember sitting on Daddy's lap as he read the Comics aloud. He held me on his lap while he drank coffee and read to me. Because my parents were divorced, I don't have very many memories of my father and the memories I do have I cherish. My father died several years ago, he died before I could find him and tell him how much I loved him. Fathers' Day is on Sunday, June 20, so take your father to lunch or send him a card if you can't be with him.

Saturday, June 05, 2010

I remember Blackwell, Oklahoma

Jamál (Beauty), 2 Núr (Light), 167 BE – Saturday, June 5, 2010 about 8:54 PM Pacific Time

My brother sent me a link about Blackwell, Oklahoma, my hometown. The link was a May 15, 2008 article in corpwatch.org called Suing the Smelter: Oklahoma Town Takes on Freeport by Eliza Strickland.

The article brought back memories of the Smelter Heights, of my Grandpa Newland going to work everyday at the Smelter, and of the laundry days Grandma Newland refused to hang cloths on the line because of the smoke from the Smelter. If the wind changed directions after Grandma hung the cloths out, she would rewash the cloths because she refused to wear cloths smelling like smoke.

I remember Blackwell,
I remember the Zinc Smelter,
I remember the smoke stacks bellowing smoke,
I remember Grandpa Newland after he retired...

Friday, June 04, 2010

An odd phone call today

Istiqlál (Independence), 19 ‘Azamat (Grandeur), 167 BE – Friday, June 4, 2010 about 4:46 PM Pacific Time

I had an odd phone call today. It came to the house on the landline and not my cell phone. The call concerned lowering interest rates on credit cards. The recorded message said press 1 for more information. Therefore, I pressed 1 and was connected to a human being.

He gave the proper name for the credit card and informed me about the amount left. We took care of that issue last year. He said I was wrong, but that I could make payment arrangements by giving him a debit card number. I then ask what name was on the credit card and he kept insisting on a debit card number. He hung up the phone, when I insisted he tell me whose name was on the credit card.

Apparently, there is a scam going on concerning lowering insterest rates on credit card. Someone doesn't want to lower a person interest rate, they just want a debit card number to empty the checking account. So beware calls that want to lower your credit card interest rate.

Thursday, June 03, 2010

Getting my mother to eat

Istijlál (Majesty), 18 ‘Azamat (Grandeur), 166 BE – Thursday, June 3, 2010 about 7:53 AM Pacific Time

Getting Mom to eat is becoming difficult, she eats a little bit at a time and then doesn't want to eat any more. The doctor gave her a medication that increases her appetite, which improves the situation a little. Mom eats better when we go to a restaurant then when we're at home. The only exception is fast food that I buy and bring home Mom eats that fairly well.

Mom's doctor wants here to gain weight, but she can't gain weight if she doesn't eat. The last time the doctor weighed her, the scale read 99 lbs. The doctor wants her weight to be about 115 or 120 lbs. I will be happy is she gets to 110 lbs.

I ask Mom what she wants to eat and she says, "I don't care. Whatever you fix is fine with me." The idea solution, is to take her to a restaurant for one or two meal a week. I know she would gain weight, but the problem with that is money. We just can't afford to go out to eat more then once or twice a month. The only thing I can do at this point is encourage her to eat and make sure she takes her medication.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

Midweek Reflections on the First Wednesday in June

‘Idál (Justice), 17 ‘Azamat (Grandeur), 166 BE – Wednesday, June 2, 2010 about 8:55 AM Pacific Time

Summer is coming and in Las Vegas that means triple digit temperatures. Yesterday afternoon I took Mom to the west side of town to pick up her new hearing aid. This hearing aid is bigger and easier to insert in her right ear. The doctor asked her to read aloud about five minutes a day.

This Mom attempted to read a prayer aloud, but she had difficulty reading. Mom used her magnifying glass, but the letters were still too small. She needs a large print edition of the book and I think she needs to go into the breakfast room, which is brighter then the living room.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Unusual or odd noises

Fidál (Grace), 16 ‘Azamat (Grandeur), 166 BE – Tuesday, June 1, 2010 about 6:15 PM Pacific Time

Ever since the evening of Monday, May 31, I have heard unusual, odd, or weird noises. Sometimes the noise sounds like it is coming from the computer and sometimes I hear it just before the air conditioner comes on. I am not sure what the noise is, I just know I have not heard it before.

On Monday, I bought a new cell phone and had it activated. I did not hear the noises before I bought the cell phone. The noises do not sound like they are coming from the cell phone. The noises resemble some sort of mechanical noise, but not the type of noise a well running machine should make.

One of the noises sounds like an electrical noise of some sort, while the other resembles a metal noise. It sounds like rubbing against metal. I have no idea where the noises originate or what they indicate. I hear them at random intervals, so it is difficult to determine anything about them.