I want Momma to stop crying

Istijlál (Majesty), 15 ‘Azamat (Grandeur), 169 BE – Thursday, May 31, 2012 about 4:45 PM Pacific Time

I want Momma to stop crying. I want her to be the happy and independent woman I knew before the Alzheimer’s disease began its destruction.

I want Momma to stop crying. Sometimes the pills help. Sometimes sitting beside her and holding her hand helps. Sometimes sitting beside her and reading the Long Healing prayer helps. Sometimes combinations of the above methods help.

I want Momma to stop crying, but sometimes nothing helps. It is at these times I want to sit beside her and cry with her. I cannot do this because it would only make her more upset. Mom would not understand why I was crying any more then she could tell me why she is crying.

I want Momma to stop crying. On rare occasions, Mom can tell me why she is crying. Sometimes she misses her parents because she does not realize they died years ago. She does not remember attending their funerals. Sometimes she misses her husband because she does not remember the divorce. Sometimes she wants to go to work because she does not remember retiring.

I want Momma to stop crying. Sometimes Mom believes someone stole her clothes. Sometimes she believes someone stole her glasses. Sometimes she believes that everyone hates her. Sometimes she thinks I am her mother. Sometimes she remembers I am her daughter.

I want Momma to stop crying. I want Momma to be happy again. I want to hear Momma sing her favorite songs. I want to see Momma smile again. I want to hear Momma laugh again.