The Changes in my Life: Watching the Summer Olympics

Fidál (Grace), 19 Kalimát (Words), 169 BE – Tuesday, July 31, 2012 about 6:10 PM Pacific Time

Many things have changed in my life since the last summer Olympics. Mom has Alzheimer’s disease and does not want to watch the Olympic Games with me. At least, I think the issue is the Alzheimer’s disease. I always enjoyed watching the Olympic Games with Mom and Mom used to enjoy watching me.

I have not watched the Olympic Games much this year. I did not watch the opening ceremonies and when Mom watched with me, we always sit on the couch and watch the opening ceremonies. The few competitions I have watched I do not enjoy the way I used to when Mom watched them with me. I will attempt watching them again on Wednesday, but it just is not the same. I miss watching them with Mom.

This experience got me to thinking about some of the things Mom and I used to do together. I missed the things Mom and I enjoyed, but I am not sure I want to do them without her. I know the reason Mom acts the way she does. I know that she will only get worse and I want to cry because I miss the woman that my mother used to be. Maybe I need to focus more on the things Mom enjoys now. Maybe I need to find activities that I can enjoy by myself.

I Finally Watched some of the Olympic Events today

Istijlál (Majesty), 14 Kamal (Perfection), 165 B.E. – Thursday, August 14, 2008 about 12:54 PM PDT

I finally sit down to watch some of the Olympic events today. Four years ago you could not keep me away from the T.V. when they were on, but this year I have not been interested. I am not sure why. Perhaps it's because I am more involved in other things such as writing. In addition, it could be that I am just not that interested in the summer Olympics any more.

I am looking forward to the winter Olympics, I like the ice dancing and down hill skiing events in winter. The only summer events I might be interested in is the gymnastics, but even that does not seem to interest me all that much this year. I suppose I should explore why I am not interested in the summer Olympics that sounds like a good topic for an entry in Writing My Spiritual Journey journal.

Until I watched the swimmers today, I never realized just how boring swimming can be. I do not remember it being that boring four years ago. What has changed? I know I have changed in the past four years. I am becoming more aware of what makes me happy and what is important in my life. In addition, I am more aware other cultures then I was four years ago. Maybe that is why I am just not interested in the events themselves; I would rather see how the individual citizens of a country live, then an event focusing on one particular althalete or sport.

The reason I am not interested in the Summer Olympics probably has more to do with my transformation then anything else.